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Post by caspian macbeth on May 14, 2012 4:36:57 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellpadding,0,true][atrb=valign, top][atrb=cellspacing,0,true][atrb=style, border: 10px solid #f1e3b4; width: 450px; background-color: #f6f7f1;][STYLE=font-family: courier new; font-size: 36px; color: #191919; text-align: center; letter-spacing: 2px;]PERMANENT FILE[/style][STYLE=float: right; margin: 10px 10px 0px 0px; padding: 2px; border: 1px solid #000000;][/style][STYLE=color: #191919; font-size: 10px; margin-top: 10px; margin-left: 10px;]NAME: caspian evander macbeth AGE: eighteen GRADE: senior SEXUALITY: asexual homosexual OCCUPATION: works at a pet store
HEIGHT: 5'10'' WEIGHT: 123 lbs FACE CLAIM: AXIS POWERS: HETALIA, sweden
PERSONALITY TRAITS:[/style][STYLE= margin: 0px 10px 0px 10px; border: 2px solid #191919; padding: 2px; font-family: verdana; height: 125px; overflow: auto; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; background-color: #ffffff; opacity: 0.8]positives:
negatives: [/style][STYLE=color: #191919; font-size: 10px; margin-top: 10px; margin-left: 10px;]ABOUT PAST EVENTS[/style][STYLE= margin: 0px 10px 0px 10px; border: 2px solid #191919; padding: 2px; font-family: verdana; height: 125px; overflow: auto; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; background-color: #ffffff; opacity: 0.8]- He was an accident, really.. His parents married because their parents pressured them to, when his mother became pregnant.
- His parents, however, were friends, and did love each other as such, and they raised Caspian with love; he never knew the difference, before they mutually divorced when he was eight. Even if he pretended to understand, he didn't, and he was hurt.
- It turned out each parent had someone on the side, and they both soon remarried; soon, both of his parents were making families of their own, and he went between the houses, never feeling like he was at home, with each parent busying themselves with work and babies.
- He started to act out to get attention, but as punishment, he was usually sent to his room, alone, and he just ended up acting out even more.
- He met one of his dad's friends when he was ten, a man named Nicholas Thompson. They became quick friends, the only friend Caspian had ever had.
- When his parents, assuming the other had Caspian for the weekend, forgot the child at school, Nicholas picked him up and took him to his own house, since his mother (who was the one Caspian knew he was supposed to stay with) wasn't home at the moment.
- That was the first time.. And, as Nicholas said, if he really loved his family, he wouldn't tell them, cause then he'd have to hurt them. So Caspian kept quiet, and hate built up into his chest.
- He didn't seen the man again until he was twelve, and by that time, he was already the problem child, getting into fights at school, though he never instigated the physical brawls.
- Remembering the two had been friends once, or whatever, his father sent Nicholas up to Caspian's room to talk to him. That was the second time. This time, Caspian fought back to keep him from going further, and bit him on the arm.
- Nicholas left and Caspian never saw him again. He never told, either. He didn't want his parents to get hurt.
- Pent up frustration and blame and anger had him lash out at school, landing him in detentions and suspensions, ISS and OSS both.
- Eventually, he was flat out kicked out of school.
- Caspian asked his mother to homeschool him, but she refused. She didn't want to be around him more than she needed to be. While he understood why, he didn't see why she had to actually say it... He never asked again. Or to spend any time with her at all, even when he had bad dreams, which he always did.
- Old enough to decide where to spend his time, he ended up staying with his mother, fearing that he'd see Nicholas again if he went to his father's house any more. But his father didn't seem to mind, and since they never really discussed it before, he didn't even notice until two months later.
- At fifteen, his dad lost his job and used up Caspian's college fund to pay off bills during the six months that he had to find a new job.
- Though Caspian's grades were always very good, his dad was certain the boy wouldn't go to college. That being said, the boy couldn't remember the last time his dad had even cared to see his grades at all.
- When he was seventeen, he found one of his half brothers kissing another boy; he pulled him away from the boy so hard he snapped his brother's wrist.
- Having come from the Academy himself, his father knew of a place to get rid of him; he was enrolled for his junior year.
- His parents didn't bother with goodbyes; they told him to be good, and went on their way.
- He was terrified in Chishiki. Everywhere he went, he seemed to find homosexuals, and he taunted them into fights over, and over again.
- Nearing the end of his junior year, he was jumped by a group of boys and ended up in the hospital for a week, recovering from broken ribs, a broken arm, nose, and a sprained ankle. His father called him to ask why he would start a fight he couldn't win? Why would he waste so much money? He was an ungrateful, violent, ignorant child, and was thereby disowned.
- He got the money in his account. He wasn't allowed back home again.
- He found a shady apartment in Hokkaido and started two jobs to start paying for one more year in the Academy, since that was the only place he knew.
- He only works one now that school has started, and was allowed to lease his apartment during the school semesters.
- He's never been as unhinged as he is now.
[/style][STYLE=color: #191919; font-size: 10px; margin-top: 10px; margin-left: 10px;]SECRETS [/style][STYLE= margin: 0px 10px 0px 10px; border: 2px solid #191919; padding: 2px; font-family: verdana; height: 125px; overflow: auto; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; background-color: #ffffff; opacity: 0.8]- He was molested when he was young, twice.
- He's homosexual, and baits others into fights to attack and punish him for it, as well to punish those who act, look, or are homosexuals themselves.
- He's extremely, extremely lonely.
- He was disowned by both parents over the summer, and is currently working to put himself through what isn't covered by his scholarship.
- When he can get others into fights with him to hurt him, he does it himself.
- He doesn't hate homosexuals as much as they simply terrify him. He immediately assumes they're molesters or rapists; he's afraid, too, that he'll turn out that way, too.
- When his dad was out of work, he used up Caspian's college fund, figuring the boy was too stupid to go to college in the first place, despite his good grades. He's saving whatever he can so he can go.
- He's only had one friend, and it didn't turn out well.
- His glasses are fake; he figures they make him less attractive, and the less attractive he is, the chance of him getting molested is also less.
- He's afraid of being touched by people, besides fighting.
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CUPPY
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Post by CUPPY on May 14, 2012 22:58:53 GMT -5
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