Post by missile2 on May 12, 2012 18:01:43 GMT -5
[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellpadding,0,true][atrb=valign, top][atrb=cellspacing,0,true][atrb=style, border: 10px solid #f1e3b4; width: 450px; background-color: #f6f7f1;][STYLE=font-family: courier new; font-size: 36px; color: #191919; text-align: center; letter-spacing: 2px;]PERMANENT FILE[/style][STYLE=float: right; margin: 10px 10px 0px 0px; padding: 2px; border: 1px solid #000000;] [/style][STYLE=color: #191919; font-size: 10px; margin-top: 10px; margin-left: 10px;]NAME: gokōnosurikire sadaoAGE: thirty GRADE: none, adult SEXUALITY: bisexual OCCUPATION: private detective HEIGHT: five foot, eleven inches WEIGHT: one hundred and fifty pounds FACE CLAIM: LUPIN THE THIRD, jigen daisuke PERSONALITY TRAITS:[/style][STYLE= margin: 0px 10px 0px 10px; border: 2px solid #191919; padding: 2px; font-family: verdana; height: 125px; overflow: auto; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; background-color: #ffffff; opacity: 0.8]POSITIVE >> Calm >> Organized >> Intelligent >> Punctual >> Cunning >> Caring >> Helpful When it comes down to it, Gokoro is actually very good at what he does. He has the right mindset for it, being a naturally cool character, who doesn't panic or act rashly. He thinks things through, slowly and deliberately, even in the most dangerous situations, and he's always taking in as much information as possible. He keeps everything perfectly organized, things are always where he left them, and over all he tries to be as much of a straight-forward rock of reassurance whenever he's put on a case. And he works hard. When you see him though, all of those traits together make him seem more machine than man. He can be cold and to-the-point about things, and much of the time, the only 'human' aspect of his comes out in his irritability and sarcasm when he's dealing with stupid shit (which he's allergic to). What's really true though it that his most human side is his ability to care for others. Though it's true, some of his lesser cases mold together into one in his mind, he legitimately stresses over the particularly troubling ones, and he's been known to take cases for free if someone's really in trouble, or to straighten a troubled kid out in a tough-love kind of way. Basically, even though Gokoro is the last person you can expect to coddle you (actually, for the most part it's easy to fall into the impression that Gokoro will actively try to screw you over), he's not one to leave someone hurt or in trouble. NEGATIVE >> Irritable >> Low Patience >> Ruthless >> Unyielding >> Stubborn >> Callous >> Vain Goko is really one to come across as either completely unfeeling or outright grouchy. He tends to not give people the reaction they want, making sure he keeps things like surprise or shock and even pain off his face. It leaves gives him almost a completely blank expression, most of the time, or a faint air of irritability. Someone who doesn't tolerate bullshit. His words to, most of the time, give off that impression. He tends to speak flatly, in a way that doesn't book argument, and it tends to come off as conceited. And sometimes, depending on the situation, cruel. When dealing with extreme situations, he'll raise his voice in anger, but he's a pretty firm believer that speaking calmly works just as well, if not better, when interrogation someone. He also very rarely threatens violence - if he thinks that punching someone in the gut will have a favorable outcome, he doesn't give a warning. He just does it. And he'll do it again and again if he doesn't get what he wants out of it. That's why it's easy for lowlife crooks who've met Goko before to be afraid of him. Finally, Gokoro has a vain side of him. Besides the fact that he likes to keep organized and presentable, he also tends to wear suits that are a bit above his pay to be wearing around on jobs like his. He though, claims that it's always necessary to look presentable (and gets really, really pissed if something gets on/ruins his suit), or somehow makes him look messy.[/style][STYLE=color: #191919; font-size: 10px; margin-top: 10px; margin-left: 10px;]ABOUT PAST EVENTS[/style][STYLE= margin: 0px 10px 0px 10px; border: 2px solid #191919; padding: 2px; font-family: verdana; height: 125px; overflow: auto; font-size: 10px; text-align: justify; background-color: #ffffff; opacity: 0.8]>> Goko was born in Sendai, Japan, to two rather lax parents. One of the reasons they'd gotten together in the first place was their similar attitudes, completely ignoring the 'opposites attract' stereotype. His mother was more than a little eccentric, loving nature, and music, anime (she was a pretty big otaku) and was a writer for an advice column that no one took very seriously. Still, her husband, who was outgoing and easily excited by pretty much anything his wife talked about, loved her. He always said she'd saved his life. >> Even between the two of them, it was hard to imagine them being able to raise (let alone afford to raise, since his father could never keep a job with his flighty attitude) a child. Somehow, though, they were able to do it decently well, with his father saying home with him, and his mother out working to keep them fed. The stress of the situation, however, but a big damper on the family. Babies tended to be expensive, and somehow they didn't really account for how much. It stressed out the wife to no end, which put a bit of tension in their marriage, since Goko's dad was just as stressed from having to watch over a baby. Their arguments over the subject got more and more frequent, the mother often leaving to get some air and staying out for most of the night. That only made the relationship tailspin more. Goko's dad's care of him deteriorated too, as he became more and more frustrated with his wife. The lack of attention bothered Goko at first, but after long spells where his crying went ignored, he stopped. >> Then one night, when Goko was four, and was trying to entertain himself off in the corner of the run-down apartment somewhere, his dad got a call that told him his wife had died. She'd apparently just gotten fired, and had gone immediately to a bar to get as drunk as possible, and then she drove into oncoming traffic. She wasn't even driving in the direction of home. Goko's father could not even form words, he had no idea what to do. Despite their issues, his wife had been is anchor for as long as he'd known her, and he didn't think he would be able to handle life without her. >> It turns out he was right, he really couldn't. After her funeral, he did try to get a job, but wasn't even feeling it enough to make a good interview, and it caused him to spiral even more into depression as their saved money began to dry up. Until finally, when he couldn't see any sort of future, he relapsed back into something that he hadn't tried since he'd began dating his wife, which was heroine. He'd always said that quitting was the best thing that ever happened to him, right next to marrying his wife, but now that the worst had happened, it just seemed so appealing to get away from it all. >> Goko, for his part, watched this from an age where he couldn't really understand what was going on. All he could really understand was that there was nothing he could do about it. Even though he was well on his way to beginning school he still hadn't begun to speak yet. When he did got to school he had trouble for that reason (not much to do in beginning school when you don't speak), not to mention he didn't get along well with the hyperactive other children, when himself was very slow and lethargic due to lack of energy. He was also always the messiest, only ever dressing in what his father managed to be clear enough to put on him before sending him to school. >> It was going to school that made Goko realize that he was odd. That there was something wrong, even if he couldn't be completely sure of what. He was picked on a lot, but didn't have much of a reaction to it, having already 'grown out' of crying, or really making any sort of sound. On thing that did make an impact, though, was when a teacher of his commented that he was always so messy, and that he really did need to bathe more often. It held higher authority with him, mostly because it was an adult, and it embarrassed him quite a bit. When he went home (to the even cheaper apartment that his father downgraded to), he used whatever water was still running to wash up as best as he could. It only helped marginally, but Goko was beginning to understand what was wrong, and it had a lot to do with where he lived; and his father. >> Goko was never going to be angry at his father though. He was the only one who was taking care of him, and the only one who'd ever taken care of him. Even if the memories where blurry and didn't make a lot of sense, he could still recall a time when his father had actually put the effort in, and somehow, he did understand, looking at his father now, that there was no way he could do that again. Even if he wanted to, which Goko, at age six, was fairly hopeful that he did. He did know that he wanted to protect his father though, especially from wherever some people would say he would go. Goko didn't want to leave his dad, not to go to child services, or for him to go to rehab, or any of those things that Goko didn't really understand. He started to actively protect his father then, and he learned, with some difficulty, to actually speak. >> He got food where he could, and when that began to not be enough, he began secreting away the money his father had gotten from doing drug dealers favors, or whatever it was else that he did to feed is addiction, in order to buy some. He became autonomous very, very quickly, for someone so young, but it was mostly out of necessity. He spent a lot of time out of school, but not enough to warrant any more than casual suspicion. By the time he got to junior high, though, it was nearly impossible not to warrant some suspicion. He'd made sure not to give correct information on his files though, so when he stopped going to school entirely, they couldn't find him. He's had a Missing Child's report on him for years. >> When he was twelve, his dad caught him taking some of the money he'd gotten to go buy more food and gave him the beating of his life. Goko thought he was going to die, which was a big defining moment for him, and he blacked out before it actually stopped. He sported a black eye, which he hated, and some cracked ribs, along with plenty of bruising that had to heal in it's own. His father apologized for it when he was a little less high, but Gokoro found he'd already forgiven him, that he hadn't even been all that angry. A few days after that, his father bought him a whore. Later, he realized that his father probably didn't know how old he was. >> The girl was young, only about 18, but she definitely had more experience than him. He wasn't sure what he was supposed to do, but the girl lead him through it pretty well, and his father encouraged him. This happened a few more times, his father apparently very pleased that he could teach that to his son. Goko for his part was confused over it. It wasn't that he wasn't attracted to some of them, and puberty was beginning to fill him with urges that this brought out of him. But he still couldn't help but feel vaguely disgusted by the act itself. Since then, sex began to play a more common role in Goko's life, his father, apparently, now felt less self-conscious about bringing his 'friends' into his apartment, to do 'favors' for them in exchange for drugs or drug money. For those who wanted to touch him, though, Gokoro named his own price, and he went right back to taking/saving/ and using the money to make sure he and his father kept on living. >> After five years of that, even that simple goal turned out to be too much, and his father finally succumbed to overdose. Goko didn't know what to do, he was 17, and had pretty much taken care of himself since he was six, but he'd never been without his father before. He'd never actually been alone. He did know, though, that he couldn't stay here and be with him anymore. He called the police, so they could find his body, took the money he'd been saving up so that, he'd hoped, he could take his father away to someplace better. Instead he used that money to find a cheap apartment in Hokkaido, decent clothes, and set out trying to find a job, that he'd been too busy looking after his father to really do previously. Gokoro suffered none of the faults his more easy going parents did when trying to get a job. He was prompt and professional, and though he hadn't finished any sort of school, he was still able to get quite a few jobs to support himself, and save up even more. His reason for doing that, though, was pretty shot. For most of his life, he'd done everything he'd done for his father, out of some misguided idea of loyalty, but now it was just him, and he wasn't sure if he was willing to go through all that trouble for just himself. >> And then, one day, on his way home from work, he saw a boy, a bit younger than his own 19 years at the time, drugged out and a wreck in one of the alleys leading to his apartment. He saw his father in him, definitely, but also more than that. He saw another opportunity to fix this. Like he was given another chance to do what he never really could for his father, who was already too far gone by the time Goko knew what that meant. So Gokoro hauled him up and took him home. Besides, being a druggie, though, Goko's new charge and his father weren't much alike. He was aggressive and cynical, viciously sarcastic and independent enough to resent any help. The difference helped Goko a lot to distinguish them in his mind, and it brought out something new in him. He was able to get angry for the first time he could remember. It was really the first time that he could remember feeling something other than helplessness, indifference, or disgust in his life. His charge was so stubborn and irritating, he just wanted to box his ears and tell him off, which he did, multiple times until his new 'roomie' figured out that Goko did care a bit about him, and calmed down a little himself. >> In a way, they were good for each other, to balance one another out. Goko's charge detoxed, not 'easily' but at a fairly steady pace, with only a few serious relapses, and Gokoro was able to find the motivation to keep working and eventually go take classed and study to take a high school equivalent test, so he wasn't so far behind everyone else. They made a good pair, and their friendship turned to attraction without them really noticing, until they wound up in bed together. That's when Goko realized he had a problem, because even though he knew the difference, and really couldn't compare his lover now to those he'd had when he was younger, it felt too similar to him. Mechanical. And he knew, in his gut, that it wasn't right. That there was something wrong with him, that he hadn't noticed before. >> His lover, for his part, was having problems too, but for different reasons. Part of him was afraid of the type of commitment he was getting himself into, being with someone he owed so much to. It threatened his independence, in a way he hadn't thought about in a while, and he knew that if he took this further, there wasn't any going back. Part of him didn't see any problem with that idea, but he was naturally a cynic and instead of saying anything remotely positive, he stuck with just cursing and yelling. "Shit, this was a stupid fucking idea. It was just really weird, right? Since we're friends. God, this was so fucking stupid, sorry." Gokoro didn't really have anything to say to that, but when his friend continued with, "Look, maybe... maybe we should just forget this ever happened...?" He answered with, "Alright." >> He didn't realize that it was the wrong answer, and definitely not the one his friend wanted to hear, until the next day when he was gone, and didn't come back. Goko knew that it was his fault though, and the hope that had built up since he'd found his charge slowly crumbled to bits. Similar to how he acted when his father died, he didn't really mourn, he just kept going. He did one thing that he'd always talked about doing to his friend, and became a police officer, and the a police detective, until finally the stress and rules restraining him at that job (not to mention his general unpopularity there, for being a little too rigid) eventually made him decide to work on his own, and he acquired his private investigators license when he was 27. >> When he was 28, he hunted down a petty thief from the handful of clues left at a old woman's apartment and found his friend again, after six years. He was strung out again, and pretty pissed, Goko could tell, and definitely the culprit. Gokoro did the first thing that came to mind and punched him in the gut, knocked him out and took him home. He finished that case by returning the woman's things, and saying that the culprit probably panicked and skipped town. Detox was even worse now, because Goko was older and less inclined to sympathy. He told his friend that he couldn't leave until he was better again, which he protested, but Goko wasn't having it. Over time, their relationship patched up a bit (not completely), and his friend never did leave again. Instead he helped him out on his cases, giving insight into the world of crime that Goko had seen, but never actually been a part of (at least not really). And they never mention the night his friend left. >> However, reclaiming his slightly-more-criminal-than-before friend, had come with a few conditions. One of them presented itself when one of the more powerful (and crazy) gang criminals in the city, personally, caught him in an alley and shoved his gun's barrel down Goko's throat (which was very disturbingly erotic), and informed him that he believed there's a bit of a misunderstanding going on between who had the rights to their mutual friend. Once the gun was out, though (presumably so he could answer), Goko took it from him, but he was quick enough to pull out another gun, ending in a stalemate. The guy left, looking amused, and said they'd meet again, which they did often (very few times without guns involved). >> The second condition was related to that, in that Gokoro got himself a stalker. Not that guy, though, but someone else who was there. He was one of the higher members of the gang associated with that guy though, and was wanted on charges of manufacturing illegal weapons, conspiracy to commit robbery/murder, murder, kidnapping and torture. He was the most timid, shaky thing you'd ever lay eyes on, lanky, but crouched to be point where he looked much smaller than he was, and laughably fragile. He was all brains and no brawn, making him a bit of a black sheep in his gang (though apparently that guy liked him just fine). He'd been told to do surveillance on Gokoro right after their first meeting, and he was already smitten at that point. And for two years Gokoro had dealt with finding tiny notes (usually helpful ones actually), and presents in his apartment, having to keep his gun ready for when he sees someone by his window, and checking for cameras and recording devices daily, though he's sure he hasn't gotten them all. No to mention he has to worry about when he'd going to wake up in an unknown location, tied to a chair, and occassionally tortured, while his stalker tries to stutter out what's pretty obviously a love confession that never gets passed, "Oh, um, hhello dddetective. Iit's, um, nice to ssee you. I, I... in good health, I mean. I, I, um, jjust wwwanted to... ummm... I wanted to ssay... I mean... I... wwould you like some ttea?" >> And that's been his life for the last few years. >> He's had sex since he was twelve, which made him rather desensitized to the whole thing (and many things really). It's one of the reasons he has a hard time showing intimacy. >> He's not sure if he was technically 'raped' as a kid, or just pressured into sex, or if those are the same thing. He supposes he'd need to see it from an outside perspective. He's not someone who dwells on it though, since there's nothing he can do about it, but he does realize it messed him up. >> His father was a drug addict, and that's why he died. He usually just tells people his father died of a disease, and thinks that's not too far from the truth. >> He's killed a few crooks when he didn't have to, when he could tell they weren't going to get proper punishment by the justice system. Particularly the real bad ones that he would consider the world to be a better place without. He just riled them into a shoot-off and shot them dead. Then he filled in his report, claimed self-defense, and never lost a wink of sleep over it. >> He has a Danger/Torture Kink. >> He's involved in a four-way hostile romance square >> Alcohol >> Coffee >> Simple Cases >> When Things Go Right >> People Who Aren't Difficult >> Fancy Restaurants >> Fancy Clothes >> Reading >> Danger >> Illegal Drugs >> Addicts (with some exceptions) >> Messes >> Dirty Places >> Being Late >> Idiots >> Insomnia >> Getting His Face Hurt >> Criminals (with some exceptions) >> The Police[/style][STYLE=color: #191919; font-size: 12px; margin-top: 10px; margin-bottom: 10px; text-align: center; font-family: courier new]application was passed by missile[/style] | [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellpadding,0,true][atrb=valign,top][atrb=cellspacing,0,true][atrb=style, width: 40px;][STYLE=background-color: #f1e3b4; font-family: courier new; font-size: 30px; color: #404040; min-height: 150px; padding: 5px; text-align: center; moz-border-radius: 0px 10px 10px 0px; -o-border-radius: 0px 10px 10px 0px; border-radius: 0px 10px 10px 0px; -webkit-border-radius: 0px 10px 10px 0px;]g o k ō n o / d e t e c t i v e[/style] |
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